arrogant चिरिबिरी

many wrote about stillness
many about the feeling caled love
many more about hate n dreadfulness
n millions about the pain engulfed.

what makes me remember n write about my life
is how feelingz made me still, titled me "a fool in love"
& the hatered that ozzes out of my veins
& overshadows the dullness brought by the pain.

when I think, how I "blinked", n how I froze-still in itz sight..
when I think, how I loved, n loved back was what I thought..
when I think, how easily betrayed, n how in my life hatered was brought..
when I think, how I changed, n how with pain izz the life I sought..

i'm glad i don't write on stillness of heart,
nor on love, nor pain, nor hate.
i write to set my soul free,metaphorically,
n to be ME, n kickstart my fate n my self-made destiny..

Bless the arrogant ME!!!

चिरिबिरी सोच - हरु

सुखको किरण छिर्दछ
मनको दैलो खोलि
लुक्न जान्छन दुखको बादल
उदासीनता पनि आखा छोपी

शुन्यता रहन्न अब
न त हुन्छ मन आक्रान्त
जब लालिमा चढ़छ क्षितिजमा
जीवन बन्दछ शान्त

आखा अगाडि लक्ष साधिन्छ
पाइला सर्छ नव दिशा तर्फ
" अब होश गरेस, नहटनु है "
मनको आवेश र उल्लाहस कह्न्छ

न अनायास नै बाटो बिराउनु
न त पथभ्रमित हुनु
न आखामा अज्ञानको पट्टि बाँधनु
न अरुलाई लडाउनु, न आफु डगमगाउनु

लक्ष : हर दिन नया आयाम रचेर
बाँच्नुको सार पहिल्याउनु
अन्तिम स्वास लिदा, बितेका दिन सम्झी
चरम आनन्दमा लोलुप्त हुनु

मिर्मिरे को चिरिबिरी

जब हुन्छ बिहानि
तब रुन्छ यो मन
चस्किन्छ यो छाती
बदलिन्छ धड्कन

मिर्मिरे मा
अनायास नै
आँशु आउछन
आँखा बाट ...

मिर्मिरे मा
अनायास नै
छचल्किन्छन
बह जती ....।

दिन ले बोलाई रहन्छ
यो मन मान्दैन हो ..
खुशी ले ढक्ढक्याउने
आश गर्दैन जो .. ।

मिर्मिरे मा
अनायास नै
शिरानी पनि
ब्यथा ले भिज्यो । ।

मिर्मिरे मा
अनायास नै
तुवाँलोले ....
जिवन लाई छोप्यो । ।

अधर काँपी रहेछन
लुक्दैछ हाँसो ..
भरिएका नयन ले
परेली नि झुक्यो .. । ।

मिर्मिरे मा
अनायास नै
आँशु आउछन
आँखा बाट ..। ।

मिर्मिरे मा
अनायास नै
छचल्किन्छन
बह जती ...

मि र्मि रे मा .......(!)
:)

for my valentine!

Up into the clouds again, my dreams are floating

it peeps down, n i look up again, merely gloating

the engulfing fear that away it flies..

         threatens me , with thunderous noise

            darkening the horizon, the dream seems to die.. 

              Pathetically! leaving me no choice.

.

When i step forward, i have no proclamations..

when i look back, i Had no obligations...

when try to focus, i have no motivations..

my life turned into just another " MisInTerPreTatioN"

.

then with a BANG! the reality hitz!

Dreams drop dead in the cruel deserted pit!

No more the wings that were spread so wild! 

i'm No more the Dreamer and No more a Child

i'm back to who i am and pray! 

Don't get me wrong.. it was just a damn ride in just another day,   

mopping and flushing the Dream away 

back i am to U - To STAY (!)

( don't kill me for writing this ... lolzzz....)

आधी अधुरी चरी

आधी अधुरो,
कुरै कुरा हो 
अन्तरङ्ग अनि भिन्नै चाहा हो ...
मैले नै आज इच्छ्याएको,
जिवित लाश को,
यो बेग्लै कथा हो ।।


दृश्य हरु छरपस्टिएका
धमिलिंदै  आत्मालाई झंझोडिरहेका ।
किन गल्छ, किन पोल्छ,
किन दुख्छ यो छाती,
खोक्रो भो भित्र, बाहिर, 
जिउनु छ साथी । ।


आबेगमा अएर मैले नै होला 
शायद सबैको मनलाई दुखाए ।
हाँस्नुको सट्टा अट्टाहसले नै
उमंगलाई बिलौनामा पो पुर्‍याँए ।।


अब हेर्छु, यो जिउँदो लाश नै छ,
न भित्र नै क्यै छ, न बहिर नै क्यै छ ।
आत्मा बिहीन छ, 
शरिर छिण- छिण  छ,
मानिस नहुनु को 
पिडा हर दिन छ  ।।।  ..( !)

all Chari can do is Pray!!!

i can sense what U feel..... i can read it in your eyes...... but knowing that those eyes will be lost.... is the most painful thing i'v ever come across............ i pray , i pray .. i pray for all those i care... never u have to go thru  such pain and despair......................... u all know whu i wrote it for .............. may God be kind enuff n Spare me n mostly HER......
.
.
. 
PrayerZ Have made a home in her eyeZ
AmidstZ the other Overwhelming thoughtZ
Erasing the loved oneZ & who notZ
Passing soothing smileZ, but within she SighZ !!! 
.
ChuckleZ of her baby Supersede
the one deep love of her life
& all that she has Done SupersiZe
Eyes Moisten! but prayer is all there is Indeed !!!
.
knowing the end is there, ImagineZ the orb of FLame,
Her fantastic life blazeZ by 
WonderZ she' Z created Soaring High
Love of her life , will be Dazed, left with nothing more to CLaiM !!!
.
Unknowingly her handZ rise upto God
her faith crieZ to that divine
"let my baby be treated as thine , 
for heZ the only love that I Created with my own blood." !!!
.
& slowly closing the curtain of eyeZ
Burnin' much more in the seraphic flame
murmurZ of her baby - distant N in pain..
She HearZ the final Good-ByeZ n PrayerZ (!)

चरी फेरी चिर्बिर गर्दै छे

ब्याप्त अशान्तिमा जब ,
मन भित्र को पोल्टा खोलीन्छन् ,,,
त्यहाँ ब्याप्त अशान्तिले ,
कलमलाई आफै डोयाउँछन्
हरेक स्पन्दनबाट जब माया का कुरा निश्कन्छन् ,,,
त्यै शान्तिमा पनि मन तिम्रै याद मा कल्पिन्छन् 
फेरी पनि, बाहिर नियाल्दा ,
म त भित्रै नै रमाउँछु
तिम्रा स्मृति का हरेक अंशमा ,
जीवन सफल पाउँछु ,
मेरो मुटु को चाल थाहा पाउँछु ,
अनि बाच्नु को अर्थ भेटाउँछु (!)